Secret #5

I feel fat.

My family is all stick thin and super healthy. Then there's me. Put that with my perfectionism and need I really say more? I thought I got over this when I got over my eating disorder. Clearly I was wrong.

Secret #4

I put way too much on my plate.

I keep telling myself that I can handle everything I have going on, but I don't think that I can. It's just overwhelming. But for some reason, I can't seem to get myself out of it, so I keep telling myself that it will get better. I'm just waiting for that to happen...

Secret #3

I don't believe in myself. I just can't see this potential that others say they do. Is it even really there?

Secret #2

I don't have it all together. Not even a little bit. Sure it may look like it, with straight A's, working 20+ hours a week, while managing 15 credit hours, involvement in student leadership, steady boyfriend, social life, and mentoring three younger girls, but it isn't true. I'm barely holding myself together. To be honest, I'm not sure how much longer I can hold all of this together. But I guess I have to since I can't manage to say no.

Secret #1

I'm not sure if I want anyone to see this blog.

I know, I know. Why post if you don't want anyone to see it? But this blog is going to be everything I am and everything I'm not-displayed for anyone to see. It's kind of a scary thought.

But here it goes: My secrets out there for anyone to see